I literally haven’t dated anyone yet because I was afraid of his reaction (I’m also financially dependent on him) and then he just casually drops this bomb while we’re having an unrelated fight. That he has known I’m gay for years. It’s important to note that during these years he has trash talked gay people. But now while he was telling me this he was very calm. So I ask him if he’s angry or hates me or whatever, and he says I don’t like it but you’re my son what else am I supposed to do? If you killed someone I’d have to cover up for you even though I don’t condone murder, if I had to kill someone to protect you I’d have to do it even though I wouldn’t want to. So “it is what it is”. I just can’t believe his cognitive dissonance.
